It’s Simple that You’re Complicated: A Song

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Written and Performed by Abby Berman

 

It’s Simple

That you’re complicated

And it’s fine

That you have your own mind

For something so easy to say

I wish it was easy that way

To believe the words tumbling, stumbling

From my mouth

 

It’s shameful

My attempt to tie you down

Like some exotic creature

I don’t get used to seeing you around

Hypnotic words you say

They do all they can to steal my heart away

Without a warning it’s still beating as you’re leaving

Tucked tightly in your hands

 

Because I’ve tried and tried

So many times

Even from the start

To convince my heart

It doesn’t love you

But my heart is a stubborn one

It runs miles and miles

Through mountains and streams

It does what it wants

It lives in it’s dreams

That someday you’ll love me

Buy my heart is a stupid one

Oh my heart is a stupid one

And it’s torturing me

 

These people

They’re not complicated

They’re fine

There’s nothing that they mind

They’ve never had a struggle to see

They know not of what you burden on me

And I wouldn’t wish it or curse it, not the worst of it

Though I feel so alone

 

Because I’ve tried and tried

So many times

Even from the start

To convince my heart

It doesn’t love you

But my heart is a stubborn one

It runs miles and miles

Through mountains and streams

It does what it wants

It lives in it’s dreams

That someday you’ll love me

Yes, my heart is a stupid one

Oh, my heart is a stupid one

And it’s torturing me

 

This can’t be good for me

It just can’t be good for me

My belly is hungry

I’m starving for more

This can’t be good for me

It doesn’t feel good to me

But I guess I’ll always get what I settle for

 

Because I’ve tried and tried

So many times

Even from the start

To convince my heart

It doesn’t love you

But my heart is a stubborn one

It runs miles and miles

Through mountains and streams

It does what it wants

It lives in it’s dreams

That someday you’ll love me…someday you’ll love me…someday you’ll love me

Someday you’ll love me…someday you’ll love me…someday you’ll love me

Someday you’ll love me…someday you’ll love me…someday you’ll love me

My heart is a stupid one

Yes, my heart is a stupid one

And it’s torturing me

 

It's Simple That You're Complicated-A Song by Abby Berman

It’s Simple That You’re Complicated-A Song by Abby Berman

Writer of Song: A Song

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Written and Performed by: Abby Berman

Recorded by: Gabe Dulek

 

I met a man

On the train yesterday

He told me he was married

But we could talk just the same

Was on his way back home

To see his lovely wife

He told me of his travels

He told me of his life

Then he said “Hey Sister,

What you plan to do?

Your life is just beginning

Your childhood finally through.”

And I just said “Well Mister

Anything else would be wrong

I want to be a writer of song.”

 

Well that’s beautiful through and through

And there’s nothing else that I could ever do

Than be a speaker of dreams and truth

A writer of song

 

So I will take this harmony

And I will take the tune

And I will show the world

What a melody can do

These words they will have meaning

And their truth will be said strong

When I become my writer of song

 

Well that’s beautiful through and through

And there’s nothing else that I could ever do

Than be a speaker of dreams and truth

A writer of song

 

So I will taste this sunset

And speak the broken earth

While I relive this beauty

At its humble birth

This moment not forgotten

It will live forever long

Sheltered by this writer of song

 

Well that’s beautiful through and through

And there’s nothing else that I could ever do

Than be a speaker of dreams and truth

A writer of song

 

These words they will have meaning

And their truth will be said strong

When I become my writer of song

 

(**I wrote this song quite a while ago, and decided to rerecord it recently. It really was written on a train about a month before I graduated high school. )

 

xoxo-Abby

http://www.TracingAbby.com

 

"Writer of Song", a song by Abby Berman, www.tracingabby.com
 

 

 

 

 

 

You Can Dream the Night Away: A Lullaby

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Written and Performed by Abby Berman

 

 

You can dream the night away

You can close your eyes

Feel the darkness hold you tight

Her perfect lullabies

I’ll be watching over you

It’s only you I see

And when I’m dreaming you’ll watch over me

 

You can dream the night away

Float softly in the clouds

Feel the nighttime’s sweet embrace

Wrap you all around

I’ll be watching over you

‘Till all your dreams are found

And when you wake I’ll catch you on the ground

 

When you think it’s too late to turn around

And it’s too soon to go on

Don’t be scared, just reach out you’ll be found

Just rest your mind

Close those tired eyes

 

You can dream the night away

Rest your sleepy head

Such adventures you will find

While safely in your bed

Peaceful slumbers pull you in

Just let them hold you tight

And I will wake you with the morning light

 

When you think it’s too late to turn around

And it’s too soon to go on

Don’t be scared, just reach out you’ll be found

Just rest your mind

Close those tired eyes

 

You can dream the night away

You can close your eyes

Just feel the darkness hold you tight

Her perfect lullabies

I’ll be watching over you

It’s only you I see

And when I’m dreaming you’ll watch over me

 

 

"You Can Dream the Night Away", a lullaby by Abby Berman, www.tracingabby.com

 

Wishing you beautiful dreams,

xoxo-Abby

http://www.tracingabby.com

 

 

 

She’s the One: A Song

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By Abby Berman

 

 

Like a storm that drowns your soul

Then waits for you to come back again

Take the pieces, once so whole

She waits for you to run back again

 

She’s the one

Your angel, who somehow fell from grace

She’s the one

You kiss her, her porcelain angel face

Let her go

It kills you, it breaks your tender heart

You should know

She’ll slowly tear you apart

 

Like a storm that drowns your soul

Then waits for you to come back again

Take the pieces, once so whole

She waits for you to run back again

 

She’s the one

Your savior, the healer of your pain

In your dreams

You see her, she lets you live again

Let her go

It kills you, but you’ll be better off in time

You should know

They watch her, eat you alive

 

Like a storm that drowns your soul

Then waits for you to come back again

Take the pieces, once so whole

She waits for you to run back again

 

She’ll never give to you

All the things you expect her to today

She’ll only say to you

All the world she knows you want her to say

She’ll never give to you

All you need

Because there is no cause for hope…  when there is no loss of vanity

 

Like a storm that drowns your soul

Then waits for you to come back again

Take the pieces, once so whole

She waits for you to run back again

 

…Take the pieces, once so whole

She waits for you to run back again

 

Written and performed by: Abby Berman

Recorded by: Gabe Dulek

 

***In simplest terms, this is a song about a man who falls in love with a demon.

"She's the One", a song by Abby Berman

“She’s the One”, a song by Abby Berman

Because of You: A Song

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By Abby Berman

 

Do I have to look alive

To be living

Do I have to look alive

To be breathing

I choose not to move

Because of you

 

Do you have to see my pain

For me to be hurting

Do you have to see the pills

For them to be working

I’m hurting whether you like it or not

Because of you

 

Such answer waiting here

Such a dream to be taken from me

Scared to death to lose everything

That doesn’t mean anything… anything… anything

Oh, I’ve felt it too…

To love somebody who doesn’t deserve you

 

Do I have to grit my teeth

While I’m smiling

Will I ever understand

Such a wild thing

I’m crazy, I’m losing my mind

Because of you

 

Such an answer waiting here

Such a dream to be taken from me

Scared to death to lose everything

That doesn’t mean anything

Should have known better from the start

But who could live that way

Scared to death to lose everything

That doesn’t mean anything… anything… anything

Oh, I’ve felt it too…

To love somebody who loves to hurt you

 

Do I have to look alive

To be living

Even though I close my eyes

I’m still breathing

I watch the world spin me to sleep

Because of you

 

 

Note: This is one of the saddest songs I’ve ever written… it captures a time in my life when I was experiencing true heartache. Luckily the specific details of this song are not literal and were inspired by a piece of literature I was reading at the time.

 

Have a beautiful day,

xoxo-Abby

 

http://www.TracingAbby.com

 

 

 

 

Porcelain Doll: A Song

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Written by Abby Berman

 

I was once a porcelain doll

Do you remember me when?

I was conceived of lace and pearls

Did you like me better then?

I remember when I understood…

I remember when I understood…

Only good

 

I once had a velvet rose

That smelt of joy

Given in the perfect world

By the perfect boy

I had diamonds in my ears

And hair of gold

A love for all to see

A dream for anyone to hold

I remember when I understood…

I remember when I understood…

Only good, only good, only good

Only good, only good, only good

 

Maybe I’m a little distracted

As I’m on my way home

Maybe I’ve overreacted

And that’s why I’m alone

And maybe, just maybe

I’m a little confused

Maybe my porcelain heart

Is just a little bit bruised

 

Hold me now

Just a little tonight

Just a little tonight

Make me feel alright

Hold me now just a little

A little tonight

Love me now

Just a little tonight

Just a little tonight

Make me feel alright

Love me now just a little

A little tonight

 

I was once a porcelain doll

Do you remember me when?

I was conceived of lace and pearls

You would have liked me better then

I remember when I understood…

I remember when I understood…

Only good

 

( This was a song I wrote quite a few years ago when I was a new adult having trouble with the idea of growing up. I was in this weird in-between place where I wanted to be taken seriously as a mature individual, and I wanted to experience new exciting adult things, but I was still mourning for an innocent childhood that was quickly floating away. It was such a hard and confusing time in my life. It’s been probably 10 years since I have written this song, but I felt like I needed to share it. It still makes me a little achy when I play it.)

xoxo-Abby

 

Written and recorded by: Abby Berman

Recording engineer: Gabe Dulek

 

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Gabriella: A Song

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By Abby Berman Mazenod

 

Given the circumstances

Given the chain of events

I’ve made my deductions

I’ve come to my conclusions

With theories upon theories

That I’ve made up in my mind

Didn’t take long to discover

That you’ve left him behind

 

Gabriella, Gabriella

Oh, he’s such a perfect fella

But you won’t listen to me

And the love that it could be

Gabriella, Gabriella

You’re his only Cinderella

And oh, you’re missing the boat

I only hope you’ll still float

…Given the circumstances

 

You deserve a good man in your life

So many have taken advantage of you

And maybe you look for that

But you deserve some sanity too

You’re my friend and I respect that

But I think you should listen to me

And I wish you could see in you

All that I see in you

 

Gabriella, Gabriella

Oh, he’s such a perfect fella

And you won’t listen to me

And the love that it could be

Gabriella, Gabriella

You’re his only Cinderella

And oh, you’re missing the boat

I only hope you’ll still float

 

‘Cause he won’t wait around

As long as you want him to

You’re lucky enough

He’s still around after what you put him through

Don’t you see it?

Don’t you feel it?

Don’t you get it?!

He’s all you’ve been waiting for

You’re letting him walk out the door

 

Gabriella, Gabriella

Oh, he’s such a perfect fella

But you won’t listen to me

And the love that it could be

Hope you find him, hope you found him

‘Cause you know you’re only drownin’

And oh, you’re missing the boat

I only hope you’ll still float

…Given the circumstances

 

(This song was written about a beautiful friend of mine who has had a little bit of rough luck with love. She’s still on the journey of finding love, and I know she will find someone who really deserves her soon.)

 

xoxo-Abby

http://www.tracingabby.com

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Every Ounce of Me: A Poem

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By Abby Berman Mazenod

 

In case I never feel this way again, I’m just going to feel

In case my heart is never this full again, I’m going to drink it in as much as I can

In case the whole world crashes down on me

In case we don’t end up where we’re supposed to be

I’m going to love you with every ounce of me

 

In case I wake up one day, and my life has been a dream

And all this that feels so real and alive, is just a song painted in my mind

You need to know while it’s so real to me

Just know how it feels to me

Know how I love you with every ounce of me

 

And if I’m too young to make all this make sense, can I please not be a fool

And I’m too naive to understand such a find, can I please not have made it up in my mind

You need to know how it’s so real to me

You need to know how it feels to me

Know that I love you with every ounce of me

 

-Abby

 

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Don’t Give Up On Me Yet: A Song

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Don’t Give Up On Me Yet

By Abby Berman Mazenod

 

 

It’s simple they say

Life simply gets in the way

And I forget

To remember what’s really real

I’m sorry I don’t show

I forget to let you know

Times have changed

But the phone still goes both ways

I’ve disappointed a few

Like I’ve disappointed you

Can you forgive and forget

I’ve disappointed a few

And I disappointed you

Don’t give up on me yet

 

Do you rewind through memories

Perfect times with perfect ease

It all makes sense now

We had no idea

If we went back right now, right here

Would it finally all be clear

All that seemed so important

Meant nothing at all

I’ve disappointed a few

Like I disappointed you

Yes, I have my regrets

And I have forgotten a few

But I never forgot you

So, don’t give up on me yet

 

Tell you right here right now

That I finally see how much you mean to me

It’s taken time

And it’s happened so very gradually

But I’ve had my time

Made my life the way I wanted it to be

And you had yours

And I know that made you happy

 

It’s simple they say

Life simply gets in the way

And I forget

To remember what’s really real

Yes I have forgotten a few

But I never forgot you

So don’t give up on me yet

 

*** This is a song/poem about keeping in touch. The older we get, the harder it seems to be to make the important people in our lives feel that they are important. It also becomes a challenge for us to realize how much we need certain friends and loved ones in our lives. I am all for filtering out the toxic people that weigh us down, but sometimes we need to take note of the special people who build us up; The ones that help you and me to be a better you and me. This was really inspired by losing touch with one of my closest friends and my attempt to reconnect.

 

xoxo-Abby

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