By Abby Berman
Do I have to look alive
To be living
Do I have to look alive
To be breathing
I choose not to move
Because of you
Do you have to see my pain
For me to be hurting
Do you have to see the pills
For them to be working
I’m hurting whether you like it or not
Because of you
Such answer waiting here
Such a dream to be taken from me
Scared to death to lose everything
That doesn’t mean anything… anything… anything
Oh, I’ve felt it too…
To love somebody who doesn’t deserve you
Do I have to grit my teeth
While I’m smiling
Will I ever understand
Such a wild thing
I’m crazy, I’m losing my mind
Because of you
Such an answer waiting here
Such a dream to be taken from me
Scared to death to lose everything
That doesn’t mean anything
Should have known better from the start
But who could live that way
Scared to death to lose everything
That doesn’t mean anything… anything… anything
Oh, I’ve felt it too…
To love somebody who loves to hurt you
Do I have to look alive
To be living
Even though I close my eyes
I’m still breathing
I watch the world spin me to sleep
Because of you
Note: This is one of the saddest songs I’ve ever written… it captures a time in my life when I was experiencing true heartache. Luckily the specific details of this song are not literal and were inspired by a piece of literature I was reading at the time.
Have a beautiful day,
xoxo-Abby