Because of You: A Song

 

By Abby Berman

 

Do I have to look alive

To be living

Do I have to look alive

To be breathing

I choose not to move

Because of you

 

Do you have to see my pain

For me to be hurting

Do you have to see the pills

For them to be working

I’m hurting whether you like it or not

Because of you

 

Such answer waiting here

Such a dream to be taken from me

Scared to death to lose everything

That doesn’t mean anything… anything… anything

Oh, I’ve felt it too…

To love somebody who doesn’t deserve you

 

Do I have to grit my teeth

While I’m smiling

Will I ever understand

Such a wild thing

I’m crazy, I’m losing my mind

Because of you

 

Such an answer waiting here

Such a dream to be taken from me

Scared to death to lose everything

That doesn’t mean anything

Should have known better from the start

But who could live that way

Scared to death to lose everything

That doesn’t mean anything… anything… anything

Oh, I’ve felt it too…

To love somebody who loves to hurt you

 

Do I have to look alive

To be living

Even though I close my eyes

I’m still breathing

I watch the world spin me to sleep

Because of you

 

 

Note: This is one of the saddest songs I’ve ever written… it captures a time in my life when I was experiencing true heartache. Luckily the specific details of this song are not literal and were inspired by a piece of literature I was reading at the time.

 

Have a beautiful day,

xoxo-Abby

 

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